Somebody Pushed Me From Behind

In the silence of an evening I notice nothing but the wind pushing it's way through trees. Its quite out here in a home that sits at the edge of town. The setting sun has swung to the far side of the horizon. For only a momment, I wish I didn't know where it disappeared to. I wish I didn't know what lay beyond the moutains rising far to the west. Why am I here I asked myself... Yesterday I was suppose to leave this place. It didn't make much sense but I was suppose to die. Just like that I would have been gone. It was suppose to be fate, I saw it and I knew for sure it was my time. But... somebody pushed me from behind. Staring hard at all that was around me, I looked accusingly at everything. The swaying trees, the grass, rocks, clouds. Culprits. Conspiritators in the henious crime of my salvation. All of them! I grip the grass at my knees and played again in my mind what happened that day. The day... I was born. Still to this day it is difficult to understand. Here I was making my merry way into Possiblity. Far away in a place of dreams, I sat wide-eyed as they pieced me together. Commisioned by a master who I could not understand. He mumbled sounds and there was such a light shining in his eyes; especially when he looked at my unnit form. I was careless as all these forms bustled around hurridly inputing data into machines, scratching notes, frowning at me in thought. Light shone everywhere. Lights were even being placed in me. I didn't know what it was but I felt like was waning, being pushed away. But I never moved. As I felt myself sliping away the workers hurried even more till everything I saw became a blur. The master came and went like a wirlwind with his bright smile. Flash. Flash. After a while the sounds of creation started to die down and I struggled to stay where I was. Now the only worker there was the master himself. I couldn't take it and started to make frantic movements and strange muffled sounds. With only a light flash of concern he chuckled and kneeled down next to me. With careful hands he looked at me for a long time. Smiling, sighing, even laughing. All the while looking into me. At last far away a horn gave a loud rumbling blast. He didn't stop looking at me as he raised me up. Bringing me close he breathed on me like one breathes on glass to clear it up. But instantly I solidified like frozen glass. Happiness floated all around him and I didn't understand why I was the focus of it all. A tiny tear formed at the croner of his left eye. Brushing it with a finger he chuckled and placed a strong hand on me. Then he said the only thing I could understand, "Live". Suddenly as if his touch was the only thing keeping me there he let go and I vanished. In the darkness I felt nothing, heard nothing, and saw nothing. But only for a momment. A wind started to push me and I remembered the master's breath. There was a weight all around me and I struggled towards the source of the wind. All around lights started to blink into existence, like stars. These far away dots slowly became larger and I could tell they were just like me. Also like me they rushed to the source of the wind. The wind became a howl and the space around me cut and ripped at me. As we raced along in the screaming darkness lights disappeared. Everywhere the space was glittering. I began to feel a tug on my form, I suddenly realized I wasn't moving myself. I was being rushed to a fixed point. A tiny ball flew past me around it was wrapped noises of its passing and in a tiny flash it disappeared. Then I saw it. The point in my mind where I was being guided, it pulled at me and I longed for it. I knew for sure it was my time. The wind howled around me as I fell faster and faster. Just at the point when I knew I was about to disappear a tiny ball suddenly hit me from behind. I was pushed out of the vortex and away from the point of entry. The tiny ball made sounds like the others and disappeared. For a brief momment I was left to wonder what happened and then the howling built up again and soon after I disappeared. I ended in far away from the world I was suppose to enter. Far away from the death of my baby sister. Far away from the war that ravages my whole country. Far away from a life that would have been mine. But this is where I am. Here beneatht this sky and everyday I grow my certain it was for a well-thought out and intended purpose. And everyday I grow more deteremined to exact that purpose.