DAISY

That is one girl I haven't seen in a while. Her memory turns my head with thoughts. Her eyes shifted to the right while trying to explain; hands clasped on her lap. I never caught a momment like this where I thought its passing I would never miss. But I fight all the same to maintain the feelings it brought and just the same lose them. What if I would look at her one last time and say... knowing all that I know now... I would never let her go. Knowing now how three years could steal into nothingness. All I know now is that they were spent without her. Could anyone ever mean as much as her. 10 years built into one simple smile and one simple look. Then wonder now how my heart could be so exposed and open, because all that filled it is gone. Sometimes I look up so confused at all that I see around me. Suddenly I notice people I don't recognize at all. I have to focus really hard to remind myself of all that has past. But each momment loses it worth in the churning of my heart. I want you to know of my bitter war. I was a captain on a High Hill, I would motion the ranks forward. My wish was to obliterate my enemy, that which was all my pain. I fought it so hard or rather I endured sleepless nights and lost feelings of trying to chase her fading ghost. Then momments came where I looked back full of remorse on the crest of those hills of my life. However, I kept moving looking back at us dancing in the yard of our simple cottage. There is a bright sun back there, and every momment filled with a vibrant understanding. All that I knew stood before me. But I guess I only forget that I looked back just as I do now. I forget and remember everything with a bit exaggeration.